I’m feeling a little out of touch with life and reality lately. I feel like sticking to myself and shielding myself from the outside world. I feel like if I pull back it will save me a lot of trouble. I’ve always used a shield in life and I’m not sure why I’ve stopped. 

It’s a hard week for me and this rain and gloom is not helping my mood. I’m just feeling really down over my mom and this week. Plus I’m just feeling pushed out of things. I’m feeling insecure. 

I  don’t think I can handle going into work tonight.